I know you struggle to believe I'm watching over you but I am. It isn't logical and you don't like those things which are not black and white. I was very worried to leave you sleeping but I knew how strong you are and that ultimately you are a survivor. I know others see you as cold and unfeeling but the truth I know is that you feel things so deep inside of you it is almost impossible for it to surface and rarely is that in front of others. I did take pause at the number of times you slept in my closet because it was so heartbreaking to watch you. I wanted to put my arms around you and carry you back to bed. I've been happy to see what you've done to the house and yard - you've always been so talented at making a beautiful home. I'm admittedly a bit alarmed at your continued weight loss and lack of eating but maybe this is just because I loved your curves and I really loved having dinner with you every night. It was never dull or boring. You had a talent for making even the ordinary extraordinary...or maybe that was just for me. I like to think that it was. I can sense your apprehension at going to Europe by yourself. My darling wife you are nothing if not adventurous! Go and have fun! I will be watching over you and leave you with this thought until we talk again~
P.S. I still love you.